So much has happened in the past few months. It’s a lot to process. And some a little too personal for the blogosphere. What is exciting (and I’m willing to share) is that I am finally a staff member for the Revolution! I’m currently in sunny Orlando at New Staff Training…which is totally boss. And by “boss” I mean overwhelming and exciting. I’m still not feeling totally prepared for support raising, but we’ve got a week to figure that junk out.
I am, however, really excited about what God is doing in my life. I’m looking forward to learning and growing and stretching into the person He wants me to be. It’s going to be difficult, but totally worth it. If not, I think I have a place back at the bank (psych). And a few babies to punch.
I would never have imagined, even 6 months ago, that I would be where I am today. I am scared of the future, but trying to find courage and hope. I have this irrational thought, probably on a daily basis, that I am alone. That there is no one to go through life with, no one who cares if I fail or succeed. It’s irrational, and I can talk sense into my emotions, but it’s there. I often feel alone and abandoned. Not only by people, but by God. I know that it’s not true, and I have to remind myself several times a day that I am absolutely not alone. At the drop of a hat, a number of people would be right there for me. God has no abandoned me. If anything, in these last couple of months, God has shown up in unexpected ways.
i’m very thankful for a community where I can feel the freedom to mention Dr. Pepper and there is a 12 pack on the kitchen table…Some people just know how to speak to my heart. (Thanks, Darbi). I’m thankful for mail filld with 5lbs of candy. I’m thankful that when I leave training, I have at least one appointment. I’m thankful that I’m getting the opportunity to serve this community.
Dark times are behind me. There is only light ahead.
